Wow... Only a few more days and my highschool career will be over. I've learned so much... Through both the good experiences and the bad. I've learned who to love, and who isn't worth a second thought. I've learned to smile, but also who to talk to when I feel the numbness attacking. It's crazy to think that the past 12+ years of learning are almost over. I'm kind of scared. I will miss knowing exactly where I am supposed to be, and at what time. I will miss my "friends" and friends a like. I am no ready to say goodbye... But it all comes to an end at some point or another. I look forward to spendign this summer with the love of my life <333 He is truly amazing and helps me in ways that I never thought were possible. It has been 9 months. For most highschool relationships, that's probabaly pretty great, but for mine, I feel as though it is just the time of the ice burgh. I look forward to spending the rest of my life with the man of my dreams.
Time for my confession... I am a jealous girlfriend. I mean like flat out crazy jealous. LOL. That's kind of okay, I guess, because he's a pretty jealous boyfriend. And I love that about him. It shows me that he wants me all to himself. And I consider that a compliment. I almost regret typing this, because I know that at since point I'm going to show him this post... I am kind of jealous of my lovey's ex girlfriend... She's so skinny, and really pretty. Plus, he acctually has classes with her. And I'm graduating this year, while both of them have one more year. My mind is playing tricks on me...
Cruel tricks. Like "You're icky. As soon as you leave, he'll find some one else." I know it's not true. I know when he sees this that he's going to give me a look that says "you're freaking crazy. Why would I love anyone but you?" But for some reason, my mind is rellentless. He assures me of this constantly... But I feel like I always need reassurance and that one day, he's going to get tired of doing that and leave... God I sound crazy right now lol... But I am being perfectly honest. I'm afraid that when he thinks of her, whatever feelings he once had will ressurect and he'll go with his gut. At this point, I almost don't want to show him... I'm scared about what he'll say... haha I sound like a looney right now xD
Anyways, that 'tis all for now... Good afternoon, my dears...
Time for my confession... I am a jealous girlfriend. I mean like flat out crazy jealous. LOL. That's kind of okay, I guess, because he's a pretty jealous boyfriend. And I love that about him. It shows me that he wants me all to himself. And I consider that a compliment. I almost regret typing this, because I know that at since point I'm going to show him this post... I am kind of jealous of my lovey's ex girlfriend... She's so skinny, and really pretty. Plus, he acctually has classes with her. And I'm graduating this year, while both of them have one more year. My mind is playing tricks on me...
Cruel tricks. Like "You're icky. As soon as you leave, he'll find some one else." I know it's not true. I know when he sees this that he's going to give me a look that says "you're freaking crazy. Why would I love anyone but you?" But for some reason, my mind is rellentless. He assures me of this constantly... But I feel like I always need reassurance and that one day, he's going to get tired of doing that and leave... God I sound crazy right now lol... But I am being perfectly honest. I'm afraid that when he thinks of her, whatever feelings he once had will ressurect and he'll go with his gut. At this point, I almost don't want to show him... I'm scared about what he'll say... haha I sound like a looney right now xD
Anyways, that 'tis all for now... Good afternoon, my dears...